plan of action

how am i going to get more hits on the this blog? its simple really once i get a full time job i'm going to pay for advertising on facebook.  i'm also going to rejoin you tube so i can post various links for movie reviews etc - i discovered that you can't post links on you tube. i'm not crazy about just having my friends reading my blog granted i appreciate it, but i didn't create it over a year ago just for them.

the female manifesto

so what do I want in a wife? body type - curvy.  personality - out going. hair color - brown or blonde.  Age - i don't really care about it as long as their mature and in their 20's or 30-31.  I'm not really interested in dating somebody older than me. I want a girl that is a christian because i don't believe in being unequally yoked, its funny or sad depending on your viewpoint when you see either a guy or a girl date non christians and you see the destruction that can come on them. she has to be able to cook since i am no bobby flay.  I could go on but then i would ruin the suprise when we met each other. 

endless frustration

i hate sexual sin yes i do at least that is what i tell myself so i feel better and so i don't look like a pervert.  yep i said it.  i know there is a disconnect between what i know i should do when temptation comes and what normally i do which is fall.  this struggle feels at times like a comedy of errors.  i wonder when will my heart break and i realize the destruction of my lust has consequences.  When will I care?  Will it be when somebody screams at me or will it be when God gently tells me, "you need to let go of that idol in your life, i can heal the hurt behind the action."  I obvious realize in my head that women shouldn't be my personal sex objects and i could say i'm sorry but saying your sorry and doing it tomorrow or whenever it happens again is just a veneer so i or you can just appease the guilt that we carry plus its a great way to placate the masses because who wants to admit that they struggle with sin that I and other people involved in it view as a disgusting, narcissistic, conceited action that controls you like your some damn dog with a electronic yard collar seeing the escape but seemingly not being able to escape.  I'm not hopeless because in christ and i'm a brand new creature, granted i wish this wasn't a part of my life i've been saying that for years. when i started this in 96 i didn't realize it would consume half my life.

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car trouble

two or three weeks ago I was having car trouble before I drove to my small group.  when i got to small group they prayed at the end of group and I left and my car was fine.  I had no problems.

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confidential information

I guess i'll go public with this, i have felt this way for some time.  I do not think my pinky that was broke when i was a kid, likes good worship music because everytime its good it will start to hurt.  I got prayer for on tuesday night and nothing really happened that I could tell. I didn't think to tell the person praying for me about my pinky hating worship music.  The pinky never healed originally because a family doctor gave my mom and I bad advice, i should have gone to a bone doctor but that never happened.  I have forgiven the people involved in this incident.

Now onto something else for the last week and a half i have had headaches at night when i'm trying to sleep.  Last night my headache was prayed for and I felt heat a lot of heat and the head ache got better it was still there when i went to sleep but it was a lot less.  I'll find out tonight if my headache problem is gone.

both of these events happened at robbie dawkins meetings one in lancaster & one in harrisburg.

ps the pinky hurt on wed during the worship but i didn't bother to get prayer for it, i was lazy.

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movie notebook database 2

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movie notebook database
june 4th - feb 5th

annie get your gun 6/10, arsenic and old lace 6/10, autumn sonata 7/10

big heat, the 7/10, blue valentine 7/10, boys on the side 4/10, brokeback mountain 5/10

casper 2/10, clean 6/10

finger of god 6/10

high plains drifter 6/10

infamous 6/10

last drop, the 3/10, lion king 7/10, lonely place to die, a 7/10

martha marcy may marlene 8/10 (disturbing movie about a girl's indoctrination into a cult, has lots of nudity)

narc 7/10, never let me go 5/10, the notebook 6/10

peeping tom 5/10

quiz show 7/10

rising sun 5/10, rock of ages 5/10

seven years in tibet 6/10, shipping news, the 7/10, silas marner 5/10, something wild 5/10, stop-loss 5/10, strangers in good company 6/10

tad pole 6/10, tamara drewe 6/10, tap 4/10, tape 6/10, tender mercies 6/10, thief, the 7/10, tigerland 7/10, time to kill, a 7/10, tortilla soup 6/10

under the moon 7/10, unknown (2006) 5/10, unknown woman 5/10,

war of the roses 6/10, white ribbon, the 7/10, wild strawberries 6/10, winter solstice 8/10, without limits 7/10, the women in red 5/10

year of the dog 6/10, yoo-hoo, mrs. goldberg 4/10

zathura 3/10, zelary 6/10, zelig 8/10, zulu 5/10

theater ratings
the avengers 6/10, dark knight rises (approved), prometheus 6/10, the three stooges 3/10

dvd reviews
casualties of war, the cell, the evil dead, forrest gump, friday night lights, jaws, texas chainsaw massacre

approved (8-10 ratings)
the artist, easy a, kramer vs. kramer, secretariat, stone reader, stranger than fiction, toy story 3, an unfinished life, upside of anger, war horse, yi yi,

-some movies get rated 8 or higher but the reasons they might not be approved is subject matter i.e. to much nudity for my taste or the dvd doesn't have the kind of extras i want.