wishes for the new year

what will the new year bring? a job... it would be nice.  a girlfriend, that would be cool, since i get so bored. I might be asking to much but hopefully i will be in an apartment instead of my parents house.  finally, that my emotional healing would continue and that roots of some of the problems i have (insomnia, etc) would be exposed.

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Merry Christmas 2012

Christmas is not about presents, lights, or being around family whether you like them or not, its about jesus christ's birth. so merry christmas!!!!

The best christmas I have had is yet to come.
The worst was years ago when my family had a funeral on christmas eve because my aunts second husband passed away, that really sucked.  Plus the church was so freakin' hot.

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my 150th post

year in review

i started this blog on dec 18, 2011
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top 10 posts
1  texas chainsaw massacre  i have no clue why this got so many hits
2  august 21, 2012
3  casualties of war
4  he plead guilty
5  duck amuck
6  a watershed moment
7  movie notebook database soon the second one will be posted
8  ripped from the headlines
9  carrie
10 a tool to scream

top 10 countries
1 usa
2 russia
3 ukraine
4 u.k.
5 germany
6 latvia
7 australia
8 netherlands
9 france
10 china
total countries 32

top 10 labels
1 writings
2 dvd reviews
3 looney tunes golden collection volume 1
4 ben & jerrys reviews
5 2000+ films
6 chuck jones
7 drama
8 lyrics
9 bugs bunny
10 opinions

posts 147
comments 1 (i would like more...)
subscribers 1 (the other deleted his account so i'm not counting him)
hits 1959

a dark night

“Yes, we even doubted Hitler’s resolve to exterminate us.”  The sad fact is that Jews and others did not take the threat seriously.

When you are facing death you have to cling to hope, even to the last moment.  This fact is a reality.  When you fail to do this you become a victim of hopelessness.

“The road was endless.  When the SS were tired, they were replaced.  But no one replaced us.”  I heard a similar sentiment from a Christian (rip) who survived the bataan death march.  In both, instances cruelty and hate were ever present.

“I saw myself in every stiffened corpse.”  This statement speaks a reality that I hope I never experience in my life.

“Neutrality helps the oppressor, never the victim.”  I guess the Swiss government and banks wouldn’t like this statement with them taking so much of the Nazi’s stuff.  In addition, I guess apathetic Christians wouldn’t like this statement either; it might shatter their rosy picture of life. In other words, if you’re “neutral” you’re just working for the enemy and you’re their victim without realizing it; you just might be ignorant of that fact.  Well, sorry to burst your bubble but your ignorance just ended with this paragraph.

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all quotes by elie wiesel from his book Night.

darrens letter

The day was a normal day for me as a 7th grader.  I went to locust grove mennonite, even though i am not mennonite.  I can't exactly remember what i was doing that day all i remember is darren calling me ugly and me bursting into tears, it hurt a lot because it hadn't happened in a couple years.

I just want to say to darren who i do not have a clue as to what happened to him.  That I forgive you for calling me a hurtful name.  I also forgive you for speaking a lie over me when you called me ugly.

Now darren, I apologize to you for getting angry at you and basically hating you afterwards.

the end

carmel cone

yep, i've been a very naughty boy. I guess that's what happens when you see haagen dazs ice cream cheaper than ben and jerries. this ice cream is the best ice cream i have eaten in a long time.

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walmart run

I was bored and it was 11pm so i went to walmart.  Yep, I'm adventurous.  When I went in the store, I went over to the magazines and was looking at a book on dreams.  When I started to leave the magazine section I heard the lyrics of song that said "hallelujah, hallelujah the king is here" which was really odd. When i got over to the food, picked some stuff out - two haagen-dazs ice creams and microwavable quesadillas - and left after i purchased them.

the cd incident

The day was like any other day in my sophomore year of high school.  During those years, 9 & 10th grades my brother took me to school.  That particular day was different because my brother's cruelty showed up.  I opened the car door got in and he called me ugly... i had been called this my whole childhood and hadn't been called it in years.  I flipped out in the car and tried to destroy his cd player.  He reacted by punching me in the face.  I went inside crying and my mother took me to school.  When I got to school I found out that i had been "beaten up," apparently one punch is all it takes according to an older brother.  I corrected the kid who told me of my so-called "beating."  My mother screamed at him when he got home.

I just wanted to say to my brother that I forgive you for calling me ugly.  I also forgive you for punching me and for spreading gossip about me.

I also forgive the kid who told me of my "beating."

Now i want to apologize to my brother for reacting and getting angry when you called me ugly.  In addition, I apologize for being immature when i tried to destroy the cd player.  I should have just gotten out of the car and went inside.

I hope some day to be able to say this to my brother about this and other incidents between us but at this moment we really do not have much of a relationship.