an embarassment

riley cooper had to open his ignorant mouth. I think the eagles should trade him to the cfl.   

new blogs

http://deathofpain.blogspot.com new personal blog
http://reviewingoblivion.blogspot.com reviews
http://consuminghope.wordpress.com lyrics

i will be post looney tunes post here from now on...

should i move?

I'm thinking about moving my reviews to a different blog and basically just posting personal stuff on this blog.  an example of that is the last post where I forgave my brother for trying to kill me.  the new site would have dvd reviews, restaurant reviews, book reviews, and any other reviews i can think of...  if i do this i'm not planning on creating a facebook fan page because frankly i have been disappointed in how few people on my friend list have added both this site and the comedy blog to their sites.  I have found myself focusing a lot more on writing comedy and that's why this blog has become a dead fish.  plus i get tired of posting stuff i feel is important and people do not click the links, if i want to get tons of hits the harsh truth is i have to use the word 'fuck' a couple times.

if i would do this i would eventually delete the reviews on this site and move them over to the new site.

a failed drowning

a long time ago before I was a teenager, I went with my grandparents to pick up my brother at teen missions international in florida.  During the trip home my brother almost drowned me in a swimming pool at a hotel in the south.  When this happened he was having a lot of fun.  The next day I got sick and threw up at a cracker barrel.

I want to say that I forgive my brother for his attempt on my life and for causing my sickness.

attempted murder

early childhood:
A car ran over me.

preteen years
my brother almost drown me, i'm not sure if he did it on purpose but he was having fun when it happened.

teen years
rattlesnake in the grand canyon granted i never saw it but people on my hiking group (teen missions team) did

teen years into adult hood
numerous times i have had close calls with car wrecks the most dangerous one was recently when a tracker trailor almost ran over my car on a small bridge

so satan how does it feel to try to kill somebody and fail? sucker.

strawberry addict

i think everyday i have been eating a half pound to a pound of strawberries a day.  yep, i have a problem and i think i might need to go to counseling to solve it.

King

Long live the King!

This is my generation, and I will not watch it die.  But, you are the only hope.  It's our destiny to stand tall at your side.  You are the only hope.  Beyond comprehension, your voice will shake the earth.  You are the only hope, so I bring you praise.

You are faithful, Lord.  In righteousness you judge and make war.  You are my victory.  Let every knee bow, and every created tongue confess that you are Lord.  You are my victory.  You will judge the works of man, still I will say, "You are my victory."  So I rise to see your reign manifested.  In majesty, take your place enthroned above all.

Eyes of fire.  The mountains tremble at Your voice.  God of glory, come in justice and rigtheousness to bring war.  God of glory, come in justice and righteousness to bring peace.

I can see coming deliverance from the hand of God.  Salvation, come.  I can see new dreams awakening, born from the heart of God.  Redemption, come.  I can see the saints igniting life as the voice of God.  Revolution, come.

Long live the King!

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ranch house (reading)

Ranch House

2738 Penn Ave

West Lawn, PA 19609

Phone

(610) 678-6282

Whenever we go shopping at vf factory outlets in reading we always afterwards go to this place.  The service is horrible, i guess they think everybody who comes here is old.  This isn't new their bad service, i have noticed this multiple times that I have gone their to eat.  The food was good but its probably the smallest cheeseburger I have ever had at a sit down restaurant.  The ice cream sundae was awful, the ice cream taste was lousy.  They should fire their supplier.  The decor is lousy it should be updated.

The end

just for the record: prayer posts

i have felt this way for some time, i really do not like writing about people i pray for when it comes to any type of healing, i don't know but to me it feels sort of self-centered to write about people without their permission.  Plus the focus tends to be on what I did or somebody else not what God did, its very hard to make it just about God at least that is what i have found.  In addition, who wants to read a post that is basically saying, "look at me!" instead of "look at what God did!"  my plan is to only write about first fridays because i do think it is important to have some testimonies on this blog about praying for people but it shouldn't just be about that since their are other people who do that and i might add do a much better job at it and if they feel that is okay for them i'm not going to protest. 

i'm going to start a journal where i keep track of people i pray for as an encouragement to me.  this means that I will not be writing about people at church or good friends (in the journal) who I might pray for in a prayer ministry setting.  However, I will continue to write about what happens when people pray for me (on this blog) and how God does great stuff.

tee ball

I went to my nephew's tee ball game on saturday which was really interesting.  Plus, it was hilarious.  The kids playing seemed more interested in playing in the dirt than playing tee ball.

Then, later in the day we went over to my brothers house to see my new niece which was cool.  That was odd since we never go over to his house.  My father was so concerned afterwards because my brother has a couple pictures of skulls in their living room.  I don't think its a big deal, as far as I know he's an atheist so what do you expect, pictures of jesus on a cross, get real dad.

a note from our sponsor

when i look out the window of my life.  I remember the darkness and the pain.  I wonder will anybody besides a counselor help me.  Will anybody take the risk?  You can only do so much in a hour time slot every two weeks!  I am sick of the hands off attitude i get from some people who act like i'm so far gone they can't help me.  That's bullshit!  I thought I was suppose to have prayer ministry with the counseling?  I guess that was an april fools joke, don't worry i never believed it when I was told it.  I know what your thinking hes bitter about this, not really since i never believed it in the first place.

i have been having a really hard time with my friends death and only one person has asked me if they could pray for me and they didn't even know what was bothering me until i sent them a message the next day, how sad is that, i guess posting about it online was a worthless object lesson.  I didn't want to sob in front of everybody at church so i turned her down, i guess when you get laughed at and mocked for crying as a kid its a powerful deterrent to crying in public.

I have always wondered why people at my church do not invite me over or call me.  I have no clue, since i really do not talk about my k-12 yrs or college years here, so its curious to me why people don't seem to be interested in me, i guess i'm not the popular or cool choice, oh well, to each his own.

the sentiments in this post can change and i hope that they do because i want people to love me and not shy away from me and i hope some of the things in it challenge people and if it offends you good that was one of the purposes of me writing it....

if your reading this and you go to my church i'll see you on friday.  if your wondering i have no plans to leave the church because i don't know where i else i could go to find a body that is so loving, i just wish that a lot of times they would show me more love.  i didn't feel like going to church today (april 14th) so i went to east town mall instead and sat for close to two hours.

fiction 5

oct-march
fiction ratings
brave new world by aldous huxley 4/10
day of war by cliff graham 7/10
the girl with the dragon tattoo by stieg larsson 8/10
odd apolcalypse by dean koontz 7/10
of mice and men by john steinbeck 10/10
77 shadow street by dean koontz 6/10
the yellow birds by kevin powers 8/10

 

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the car accident

A week ago today, I was almost killed.  So if you saw me, your lucky I could have been in a coffin.

I had decided to go to the library to work on resumes which i never actually did once i got to the library.  I start my car up and it starts shaking which was weird to me.  I pull out of the drive way and go into a side street and try to decide whether to go to the library.  I choose to go to the library because i figured I just need to have my oil changed.  I'm driving to the library and I get to this small bridge, at the same time a tracker trailer is on the other side of this very small bridge.  So i drive and the trucker drives at the same time, i guess my thinking that he would let me get over the bridge first was a little naive.  Since I had nowhere to go i drove my passenger side into the bridge.  Yep, I no longer have a passenger side mirror and my car is all scratched up.  If you think the trucker stopped think again, i stopped to get my destroyed mirror.  I had messed this mirror up a couple years ago, so i finished the job.

The next day my car didn't shake at all, go figure.  Yes, I think the car shaking was a warning from God but I didn't pick up on it. I'm glad I'm not dead.  I seem to have a lot of these close calls.

satan is a failure that's why i didn't die during my car accident, sucker! in addition when i realized that the original paragraph that was here had a lot of references to my friend's death which was painful and once i heard a voice tell me to and i quote: "take that fucker" once i realized it.  I was mad.  If you think you can use that to stop me writing about my life and what God is doing in it to heal me on this blog, wake the fuck up you ignorant piece of shit!  I'm not going to stop, you must really hate some of the stuff on this blog, you two-faced swine!

i realized later that my accident was very similar to an accident that killed a friend in high school and this has caused all the memories of that incident to come back.
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i'm going to write about the deliverance some other time and i'm going to write a tribute post to my friend who died in h.s. chow.

vanilla carmel fudge

vanilla carmel fudge

This ice cream is tasty and good, it has the best of both worlds: carmel and fudge.

8/10

how I slept my way to the middle

"The bigger the payday, the worse the crowd.  The other rule of thumb is:  the smaller the crowd, the harder and quicker the laughter dies, and thus the harder gig."  Good advice, I've actually experienced the smaller crowd problem.

"If you're starting out and have the chance to perform stand-up comedy in front of drunks in a bar, do it."  The reason he says this isn't so the performer can get drunk, its because if you can make somebody inebriated laugh you should be able to make anybody laugh.

"It's easier to point the finger at somebody else, yeah, but it's healthier to point it at yourself."  A piece of good advice i just wish some of my family and "friends" would take this message to heart.  I get blamed for a lot crap that isn't my fault and its fairly annoying to me.

the separation

the separation

Last night i was in my grandfather's room (he's in allentown right now) thinking about stuff and i got this really strong sense that i should create a separate blog for my comedy writing.  So today i created secret comedy portfolio and I created a fan page for it, I hope you join this since i'm not planning on posting the links regurally on my facebook page.  I am going to view this site as an online portfolio of my comedy writing.  Plus, it will give me a reason to write more comedy and hopefully it will cause me to become a better comedy writer.  I'm not doing this so i can write comedy that is full of profanity since i feel i can offened somebody a lot worse than by using curse words.  When i write comedy that is not my objective but it is a startling truth because jerry seinfeld and i'm paraphraing here says that if a joke only works if you have a curse word you have a big problem with your comedy.

neptune diner

so I went to neptune diner in the morning because I was hungry.  The waitress was nice and helpful.  I ordered a belgian waffle with chipped beef.  I liked the beef but i felt the waffle was to sweet, personally if the beef would have been a little more salty the sweetness would have been counter balanced.  Overall it was a good meal. 

this diner has a lot of good stuff: cheese steaks, cheeseburgers, omelets, crab cakes, etc.

http://www.theneptunediner.com/menu.htm

neptune diner
924 north prince street
lancaster, pa 17603
717-399-8358

ps. i'm not planning on doing that many local reviews the plan is to review restaurants that aren't in lancaster county but i wanted the first one to be local. i'm also not planning on reviewing chain restaurants.

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plan of action

how am i going to get more hits on the this blog? its simple really once i get a full time job i'm going to pay for advertising on facebook.  i'm also going to rejoin you tube so i can post various links for movie reviews etc - i discovered that you can't post links on you tube. i'm not crazy about just having my friends reading my blog granted i appreciate it, but i didn't create it over a year ago just for them.

the female manifesto

so what do I want in a wife? body type - curvy.  personality - out going. hair color - brown or blonde.  Age - i don't really care about it as long as their mature and in their 20's or 30-31.  I'm not really interested in dating somebody older than me. I want a girl that is a christian because i don't believe in being unequally yoked, its funny or sad depending on your viewpoint when you see either a guy or a girl date non christians and you see the destruction that can come on them. she has to be able to cook since i am no bobby flay.  I could go on but then i would ruin the suprise when we met each other. 

endless frustration

i hate sexual sin yes i do at least that is what i tell myself so i feel better and so i don't look like a pervert.  yep i said it.  i know there is a disconnect between what i know i should do when temptation comes and what normally i do which is fall.  this struggle feels at times like a comedy of errors.  i wonder when will my heart break and i realize the destruction of my lust has consequences.  When will I care?  Will it be when somebody screams at me or will it be when God gently tells me, "you need to let go of that idol in your life, i can heal the hurt behind the action."  I obvious realize in my head that women shouldn't be my personal sex objects and i could say i'm sorry but saying your sorry and doing it tomorrow or whenever it happens again is just a veneer so i or you can just appease the guilt that we carry plus its a great way to placate the masses because who wants to admit that they struggle with sin that I and other people involved in it view as a disgusting, narcissistic, conceited action that controls you like your some damn dog with a electronic yard collar seeing the escape but seemingly not being able to escape.  I'm not hopeless because in christ and i'm a brand new creature, granted i wish this wasn't a part of my life i've been saying that for years. when i started this in 96 i didn't realize it would consume half my life.

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car trouble

two or three weeks ago I was having car trouble before I drove to my small group.  when i got to small group they prayed at the end of group and I left and my car was fine.  I had no problems.

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confidential information

I guess i'll go public with this, i have felt this way for some time.  I do not think my pinky that was broke when i was a kid, likes good worship music because everytime its good it will start to hurt.  I got prayer for on tuesday night and nothing really happened that I could tell. I didn't think to tell the person praying for me about my pinky hating worship music.  The pinky never healed originally because a family doctor gave my mom and I bad advice, i should have gone to a bone doctor but that never happened.  I have forgiven the people involved in this incident.

Now onto something else for the last week and a half i have had headaches at night when i'm trying to sleep.  Last night my headache was prayed for and I felt heat a lot of heat and the head ache got better it was still there when i went to sleep but it was a lot less.  I'll find out tonight if my headache problem is gone.

both of these events happened at robbie dawkins meetings one in lancaster & one in harrisburg.

ps the pinky hurt on wed during the worship but i didn't bother to get prayer for it, i was lazy.

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movie notebook database 2

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movie notebook database
june 4th - feb 5th

annie get your gun 6/10, arsenic and old lace 6/10, autumn sonata 7/10

big heat, the 7/10, blue valentine 7/10, boys on the side 4/10, brokeback mountain 5/10

casper 2/10, clean 6/10

finger of god 6/10

high plains drifter 6/10

infamous 6/10

last drop, the 3/10, lion king 7/10, lonely place to die, a 7/10

martha marcy may marlene 8/10 (disturbing movie about a girl's indoctrination into a cult, has lots of nudity)

narc 7/10, never let me go 5/10, the notebook 6/10

peeping tom 5/10

quiz show 7/10

rising sun 5/10, rock of ages 5/10

seven years in tibet 6/10, shipping news, the 7/10, silas marner 5/10, something wild 5/10, stop-loss 5/10, strangers in good company 6/10

tad pole 6/10, tamara drewe 6/10, tap 4/10, tape 6/10, tender mercies 6/10, thief, the 7/10, tigerland 7/10, time to kill, a 7/10, tortilla soup 6/10

under the moon 7/10, unknown (2006) 5/10, unknown woman 5/10,

war of the roses 6/10, white ribbon, the 7/10, wild strawberries 6/10, winter solstice 8/10, without limits 7/10, the women in red 5/10

year of the dog 6/10, yoo-hoo, mrs. goldberg 4/10

zathura 3/10, zelary 6/10, zelig 8/10, zulu 5/10

theater ratings
the avengers 6/10, dark knight rises (approved), prometheus 6/10, the three stooges 3/10

dvd reviews
casualties of war, the cell, the evil dead, forrest gump, friday night lights, jaws, texas chainsaw massacre

approved (8-10 ratings)
the artist, easy a, kramer vs. kramer, secretariat, stone reader, stranger than fiction, toy story 3, an unfinished life, upside of anger, war horse, yi yi,

-some movies get rated 8 or higher but the reasons they might not be approved is subject matter i.e. to much nudity for my taste or the dvd doesn't have the kind of extras i want.

white chocolate raspberry truffle

good ice cream and its tasty!

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8/10

refusing to give in

yep i deleted what i originally wrote here since a couple weeks later I went and got the dvds that this post was originally about which was unfortunate.
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in other news
christmas gifts (stuff i bought)
led zeppelin - celebration day (the dvd is why you buy this if you want a concert album the bbc sessions is better)
guns n roses - greatest hits

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100 miles

...on the 22nd of december i started riding a exercise bike and on monday I passed 100 miles, this week its 6 miles a day on sat it goes to seven, i'm going to stop adding miles when i hit 15 i've lost 3-4 pounds since i have started doing this...

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strawberry cheesecake ice cream

This ice cream was pretty good. I'm not really crazy about cheesecake ice creams so i'm sort of biased.

6/10

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give credit where credit is due

give credit where credit is due

You love when I don't deserve it
Worthy is Your name
Your kindness is greater than life
When it rains it pours
Blessed are those who abide in You
When I am weak You are strong
Your strength and beauty are eternal
Holy and awesome are your works
Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path
In You I find myself
I cannot wait to see your face
You are the Rock of my salvation

by few left standing (rip) from "wormwood"

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a unique dining experience

it was a spring break in college I was in new york working with some people from my college helping out cef.  During the one day we went to a russian restaurant where all the menu's were in russian.  The one student with us was from moldova so she translated everything, i do not remember the name of the dish but it tasted awesome.  The atmosphere reminded me of a couple different scenes in the godfather films.

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