august 21st
I have to say that the short sermon was probably the most convicted i have gotten during a service and it has nothing to do with the speaker, it had to do with what he said about Isaiah 53. It convicted me a lot... now onto what happened after the service
I went up front with a bunch of other people, because my tailbone had been acting up again -- I had injured it in a fall a couple of months before and the pain had gone away. Now the pain was back but it was a different kind of pain. When I got up front the pain intensified. Plus, my lower back was stiff. The speaker asks the Holy Spirit to fall on us and i fell over quick. When this happens i'm always tempted to say "timber!" Since i really can't resist the Holy Spirit even when I want to resist Him. Yep, I go to a church where we believe that the Holy Spirit can work in your life and do amazing things. If that bothers you -- get over your stupid theology and grow up! When I was on the floor I decided to roll over since the pain wasn't in my stomach. Then, I literally got stuck to the floor, this wasn't a new experience, it was just the first time where i wasn't bothered by it. So a friend starts praying for my tailbone and the pain doesn't go away. In fact, the tail bone starts to throb and the stiffness in my back isn't changing. Then, the pain expanded to my left knee and it started to throb. I realized later that this knee was injured when i was a kid. I injured it, riding my bike on train tracks near my house; i had the misfortune of falling and getting gravel under my skin, i have a nice scar on my kneecap that looks like a reversed C. I also think this is the knee that locks up a couple of times a year. Personally i never bothered to tell people about the knee locking up because it doesn't happen that often and honestly i never thought it was really relevant. I guess I was wrong about that one. the dude praying for me told the pain to stop moving (by commanding it to stop in the name of Jesus) which means that it wouldn't move farther down my leg and it did stop. Then, eventually the Spirit's presence was less and the pain just stayed at my tail bone. My back was stiff the whole time.
I think the tailbone pain is just soreness from my bed which is a piece of crap and i think the stiffness is caused by the same thing. I could be wrong. The knee locking up i have no clue.
Then, later the friend brought another friend over and they prayed for some other things which included some "spirits" which included lies, and confusion. Plus this one friend had a word about me associating myself with pain and how that is a lie.
The whole time I was stuck to the floor in my head i'm was singing the song "I surrender." I think this is significant just look up the lyrics. I was stuck on the floor for at least an hour. A couple of times I heard "no, no" being yelled at me in my head, you can make your own judgments on that one. When that happened I just tried harder to sing the lyrics in my head. Since this happened i have noticed that i haven't been able to shove my hurts down deep inside as successfully, in fact during worship now i have almost cried a couple of times since this happened... i hope this is an encouraging sign to people. plus, one result of this was my previous post about my emotions because i felt like i had to since i was asked after prayer was over about hiding my pain. (Since i wrote that post I have edited it, twice.) I basically lied about it and acted like it was a curious coincidence. when in fact I knew and have known forever why I could before that night hid my pain. The thing is I didn't realize this until the next day when i couldn't put upset feelings down. I guess i wasn't ready to cross that bridge, i think i was probably overwhelmed, i'm not saying its okay that i acted ignorant and lied but i seem to have a habit of not telling the whole story to people who pray for me.
ps. when my knee locks up its always at night and its fairly painful. in addition, I know the thing that was yelling "no, no" at me, I just don't want to freak some people out by naming what it is...
I still think I have swelling from the original tail bone injury...
I have to say that the short sermon was probably the most convicted i have gotten during a service and it has nothing to do with the speaker, it had to do with what he said about Isaiah 53. It convicted me a lot... now onto what happened after the service
I went up front with a bunch of other people, because my tailbone had been acting up again -- I had injured it in a fall a couple of months before and the pain had gone away. Now the pain was back but it was a different kind of pain. When I got up front the pain intensified. Plus, my lower back was stiff. The speaker asks the Holy Spirit to fall on us and i fell over quick. When this happens i'm always tempted to say "timber!" Since i really can't resist the Holy Spirit even when I want to resist Him. Yep, I go to a church where we believe that the Holy Spirit can work in your life and do amazing things. If that bothers you -- get over your stupid theology and grow up! When I was on the floor I decided to roll over since the pain wasn't in my stomach. Then, I literally got stuck to the floor, this wasn't a new experience, it was just the first time where i wasn't bothered by it. So a friend starts praying for my tailbone and the pain doesn't go away. In fact, the tail bone starts to throb and the stiffness in my back isn't changing. Then, the pain expanded to my left knee and it started to throb. I realized later that this knee was injured when i was a kid. I injured it, riding my bike on train tracks near my house; i had the misfortune of falling and getting gravel under my skin, i have a nice scar on my kneecap that looks like a reversed C. I also think this is the knee that locks up a couple of times a year. Personally i never bothered to tell people about the knee locking up because it doesn't happen that often and honestly i never thought it was really relevant. I guess I was wrong about that one. the dude praying for me told the pain to stop moving (by commanding it to stop in the name of Jesus) which means that it wouldn't move farther down my leg and it did stop. Then, eventually the Spirit's presence was less and the pain just stayed at my tail bone. My back was stiff the whole time.
I think the tailbone pain is just soreness from my bed which is a piece of crap and i think the stiffness is caused by the same thing. I could be wrong. The knee locking up i have no clue.
Then, later the friend brought another friend over and they prayed for some other things which included some "spirits" which included lies, and confusion. Plus this one friend had a word about me associating myself with pain and how that is a lie.
The whole time I was stuck to the floor in my head i'm was singing the song "I surrender." I think this is significant just look up the lyrics. I was stuck on the floor for at least an hour. A couple of times I heard "no, no" being yelled at me in my head, you can make your own judgments on that one. When that happened I just tried harder to sing the lyrics in my head. Since this happened i have noticed that i haven't been able to shove my hurts down deep inside as successfully, in fact during worship now i have almost cried a couple of times since this happened... i hope this is an encouraging sign to people. plus, one result of this was my previous post about my emotions because i felt like i had to since i was asked after prayer was over about hiding my pain. (Since i wrote that post I have edited it, twice.) I basically lied about it and acted like it was a curious coincidence. when in fact I knew and have known forever why I could before that night hid my pain. The thing is I didn't realize this until the next day when i couldn't put upset feelings down. I guess i wasn't ready to cross that bridge, i think i was probably overwhelmed, i'm not saying its okay that i acted ignorant and lied but i seem to have a habit of not telling the whole story to people who pray for me.
ps. when my knee locks up its always at night and its fairly painful. in addition, I know the thing that was yelling "no, no" at me, I just don't want to freak some people out by naming what it is...
I still think I have swelling from the original tail bone injury...
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