boredom - the state of being weary and restless through lack of interest. first used in 1852
When I walk in the dark at night i embrace loneliness. I walk, I walk, I walk until the dark surrounds me encompassing my very being but it doesn't inhabit my soul, since i'm a child of light. I discovered something during my walks, that loneliness is just a lie sheltered by conceit. That is why I find myself less and less outside at night because i don't need that poisonous crutch to make myself feel better. I find myself attempting to resist the lure of boredom which leads to the walking outside at night but its not easy. Since i have close to 200 movies (who's counting?) but you can only watch so many films by yourself until you feel like your just watching a bunch of colors on your tv. Plus when people your own age know you exist but seemingly just view you as someone to contact on facebook you realize that maybe you should contact them. I get this attitude, "they should contact me, dammit!" However, over the years i have realized this is would be nice but it has not been my experience. For all I know they might think i have some sort of grudge against them which isn't the case and if it ever was i have gotten over it a long time ago. I fight boredom because boredom leads me to possibly doing stuff that is stupid.
When I walk in the dark at night i embrace loneliness. I walk, I walk, I walk until the dark surrounds me encompassing my very being but it doesn't inhabit my soul, since i'm a child of light. I discovered something during my walks, that loneliness is just a lie sheltered by conceit. That is why I find myself less and less outside at night because i don't need that poisonous crutch to make myself feel better. I find myself attempting to resist the lure of boredom which leads to the walking outside at night but its not easy. Since i have close to 200 movies (who's counting?) but you can only watch so many films by yourself until you feel like your just watching a bunch of colors on your tv. Plus when people your own age know you exist but seemingly just view you as someone to contact on facebook you realize that maybe you should contact them. I get this attitude, "they should contact me, dammit!" However, over the years i have realized this is would be nice but it has not been my experience. For all I know they might think i have some sort of grudge against them which isn't the case and if it ever was i have gotten over it a long time ago. I fight boredom because boredom leads me to possibly doing stuff that is stupid.
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